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Becoming an adult is literally just a state of constant rejection in which you’re told you cannot do any of the things that would give you even the slightest bit of joy and fulfillment.

Sometimes I wish that we could pretend that we never met before

and I could reintroduce myself, pretend it was the first time

because I’m stronger now

and I could love you better than I did back then.

so I used to buy weed from this girl at school

(she overcharged me)

and she always messages me on facebook and wants to hang out

but i really only have the capability to like and be friends with a maximum of five people at a time

and the spots are filled

so i mostly just ignore her

and now i’m stuck in a conversation with her and she’s asking about my relationship with god

and kill me

like, seriously, i bought dime bags off of you in the dorm parking lot

that is as far as our relationship goes

I don’t think I’ll ever try so hard again.

I hope to God, I don’t.

My heart just couldn’t take another round of this.

I’ve outgrown you. I’m so angry. I just want to spew hateful words, tell the world that I’m better than you and that you’re fake and sad and addicted and just inconsiderate. But there’s no point in being bitter. That won’t change anything. It won’t make me forget that I threw my fucking everything into you and it didn’t even dent the surface of these insane walls you’ve built up. And all this negativity doesn’t erase the fact that you taught me so much and the fact that somewhere, even for a moment, we meant something. Some friendships are for a season. Ephemeral doesn’t mean unimportant. It’s just a shame that you’re wasting yourself. You really are. But I absolutely refuse to do the same. I’m unbreakable. Especially now.

sexting is awful.

someone starts it and then you just go with it because it’s nice to hear how someone actually wants to bone you but it’s really just awkward and you can’t stop thinking about dumb you sound 

and then you’re just typing bullshit

like oh yeah that sounds good 

and then just like

mmm mmm

and eventually you take a nap out of self-defense so that you can text later and be like sorry i fell asleep and not be lying

or is that just me?　

seriously, I was the only girl in my high school class that had b00bz